I’m ashamed to admit that I’m still procrastinating with my courses. I guess I feel I have valid reasons, but deep down I know better. It’s always the same, if this wasn’t happening or if I was in such and such a position, blah, blah, blah!
My main fault is being unable to get up early to do my meditation and writing exercises, as I already get up very early because it takes me over an hour to get to work every day. Right now my alarm is set for 6.15am, giving me plenty of time to do my writing exercise, which I’ll explain more about soon, and do my meditation, before my usual morning routine kicks in.
I keep saying once I finish my college course, then I won’t have to get into work so early in order to make up the time I miss for classes. Or if I could just go to bed early, but…Reddit! Or if I worked closer to home.
Two out of three of those excuses are impossible to change right now: I still have another three months of college. And I can’t change jobs right now otherwise I’d have to pay the €2,000 college fees (my job are paying for my education). So I can’t actually afford to change jobs, which just sounds kind of ironic.
What I can change is going to bed earlier at night. When I say Reddit, I mean I am addicted to it. Every night I go to bed and browse AskReddit or other subreddits (depending) until I’m too drowsy to keep it up. Blame my fiancé, he got me into it!
I can make all the excuses I want, but they don’t stop me beating myself up. I know what I have to do, it’s just fighting against the procrastination that’s proving to be the real challenge.
Must. Not. Procrastinate!