I have been absent from WordPress for so long and it’s my lack of motivation that is to blame. I want to use mindfulness as a way to help me overcome my depression but how can I do that if I can’t even motivate myself to meditate?
You can Google solutions on how to get motivated and come up with the same answer: get on with it. I’ll admit that once I start a task, my motivation perks up a bit. But prior to doing it, it feels like a chore. No matter how good I feel after meditating, for example, it will still become a source of dread and/or reluctance the next time I do it.
And so now my blog seems to have taken a U-turn. I wanted to explore my journey with mindfulness and rediscover my passion for writing. However, while this is a step backwards, I will not consider it a failure. Perhaps I simply need to overcome certain hurdles before I can move on, in other words, maybe I jumped into mindfulness too quickly. Don’t get me wrong, I want to continue meditating, but I accept that it will take me time before it becomes part of my routine, like brushing my teeth and getting dressed in the morning.
One step at a time.
I haven’t been idle since my last entry. While I haven’t been doing much writing, I have asked my mother to spend an hour each week teaching me to knit. It’s something I got into years ago but gradually lost interest. I even drew a picture!
Even writing this required me to push myself, so forgive me if my entries continue to be sporadic. And thank you in advance for sticking with me!