Something is not right

There are plenty of reasons not to buy a particular house – too much work needs to be done, rough neighbourhood, etc. However, yesterday evening my fiancé and I viewed a house in a nice area that, yes, needed some work, but nothing out of the ordinary. As we discussed it later, we realised that something put us off this particular house but we couldn’t quite put our fingers on it.

The previous owner died (whether in the house or not, I don’t know). I can’t help but wonder, was the house haunted perhaps? I’ve read so many paranormal stories of people stepping into houses/buildings and getting an uneasy feeling. I didn’t feel afraid or anything, but there was something bothering me throughout my time in there that I still can’t explain.

Whatever it was, we won’t be finding out!

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Life on hold

When you’re saving every penny you have for a mortgage deposit, it’s hard to justify buying certain things. Everyone around me is going on nice holidays and/or buying new cars. House hunting is very disheartening right now because every house we’ve considered so far has been snapped up because we can’t compete with the high bids. I feel like we’re going to have to settle for a house that may need more than cosmetic work, so naturally, this has got me down. I don’t really have anything to look forward to, just mountains of debt.

[Self-pity rant over].

30 in 30 days: day one – coffee

My countdown begins and my first new experience was to try coffee for the first time. At first I was going to go to Starbucks seeing as I pass it going to and from work, but I’ve heard from coffee lovers, including my fiancé, that their coffee is “slop”. So I asked around and there’s a coffee bar near my office that apparently puts effort into making your coffee called Two Beans Coffee Bar (see picture below).

Obviously I had to decide which coffee to get. I decided to go with a latte, as I love milk! I never felt so out of place when I went inside, plus my glasses steamed up instantly so everything was slightly blurry. I asked for the latte and waited patiently, not sure whether I was to sit down and wait or stay at the counter. I chose the latter, as I had asked for it to-go (incase I didn’t like it, I didn’t want to leave a full cup behind). €3.10 it cost me, bit pricey! And it took me longer than it should have to find the lids!

Then came the moment of truth…

The best way I can describe it is drinking hot ash! I gave it two gulps before I had to accept defeat. Now I’m being told I should try cappuccino but that can way until 40 in 40 days list!

I’m glad I tried it, even if it did go to waste (and I really hate being wasteful). Thankfully my list so far doesn’t involve trying that many foods or beverages!

30 days to 30

Today is exactly a month away from my 30th birthday. I’ve spontaneously decided to do something new each day in the 30 days beforehand, starting Wednesday (which technically means the 30th day is my birthday, but I procrastinate!). Obviously these aren’t going to be big things because I have little to no planning time. So it’ll be little things. I’ve scoured “things to do before you’re 30” lists but they’re either too far-fetched or just downright ridiculous. And I don’t want people telling me what I should do, which also goes for the “books to read” and “movies to read” before you die stuff. I know what’s right for me.

I’ve made a short list so far of some things I want to do, but some days I may be in a pinch. Nevertheless I’m going to try, and I’ll update daily on my progress. Motivating myself to blog is an achievement in itself! I’m also looking for any recommendations, realistic ones. I know I said I don’t want people telling me what I should do, but I need some inspiration.

Here’s what I have so far:

1. Try coffee

I’m actually terrified of becoming addicted to coffee, but conquer your fears, right? What would be the right coffee to try for the first time?

2. “Thrift” shop

I never heard of that word before Macklemore and I presume it’s more of an American term, but we have charity shops in Ireland and I’ve always wanted to go exploring for some bargains. And the best part is that there are loads around where I work so I don’t have to wait until the weekend!

3. Cook dinner for my family

I can’t cook to save my life (though I’m pretty good at boiling eggs!), so I’d like to cook something for my parents (if I invite my siblings I’m just opening myself up for criticism!).

4. Go hiking

I live in the mountains (technically), there’s no excuse why I haven’t done this yet.

5. Get drunk

Within reason! I don’t drink, and while I do think I shouldn’t force myself to do something I’m uncomfortable with, part of me is curious as to how I’d act when I’m drunk. This is a maybe!

6. Write in a coffee shop

I’ve mentioned this before and it’s something I really want to do. If I wind up liking coffee when I try it, all the better! I’ve entered the NYC Midnight Short Story Challenge, which begins at the end of the month so that’s as good an excuse as any.

7. Roller-blade

I used to be an ace at rollerblading when I was a kid. Now I’m not so flexible and terrified of breaking bones. I have a pair of roller-blades that I’ve only used twice that are gathering dust in my wardrobe. It’s time to break them out (with knee pads at least!)

8. Go to the cinema after work…alone

I’ve been to the cinema alone before, but I’ve worked opposite a cinema for three years now and I keep saying one evening I’ll go in and watch whatever is on.

And that’s all I can think of for now! Donate blood, maybe, I’ve made two attempts but either my iron was too low or they couldn’t find a vein. Third time could be the charm though!

There are some planned events that may count, including a weekend in Berlin I bought my fiance for Christmas. I’ve been before but there’s still opportunity to do something new.

Positive vibes start with Lush

Some people I know don’t believe in the power of a new year. They think it’s just another day, but for some, or perhaps a lot, it’s a chance to start over. Maybe it’s not even New Year’s Day that motivates them, it could be their birthday or an anniversary. For me, it gives me a chance to change my perspective and to make the year ahead better than the last. At least that’s what I hope.

My first entry in too long is going to be about Lush because my sister got me the Dreamscape gift box for Christmas and I just have to share it!

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The beautifully wrapped Dreamscape gift box

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Snow Fairy naked shower gel

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Twilight bath bomb

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Dreamtime bath oil

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Rocket Science bath bomb

So far I’ve only had a chance to try Snow Fairy, which I love! But I’m really looking forward to trying the rest.

Happy New Year!

What it means to be in a rut

I always thought the concept of being in a rut meant you never really do anything outside of work and such, and it’s not a million miles off. I truly believed I had stepped out of my rut by going to yoga on Mondays and walking as much as I can. But unfortunately I think I’m still stuck. I looked up a definition and found the following:

a settled and monotonous routine that is hard to escape

 

Yoga has become a part of my routine and yet I find myself dreading it each Monday. I attribute this to a number of possibilities:

  1. My social anxiety (after all, I feel the same sense of dread when going out with friends)
  2. Being an introvert (being in a work all day, my need to be alone and decompress becomes greater in the evenings
  3. Laziness! (I’ll be honest, I hate going home from work and then going back out again, I’d rather just go straight)

But could this be part of the rut I thought I’d escaped? I still can’t motivate myself to do certain tasks (updating my blog being one of them). How much harder do I need to push to escape once and for all?

Mindfulness and Creativity: Excuses

I’m ashamed to admit that I’m still procrastinating with my courses. I guess I feel I have valid reasons, but deep down I know better. It’s always the same, if this wasn’t happening or if I was in such and such a position, blah, blah, blah!

My main fault is being unable to get up early to do my meditation and writing exercises, as I already get up very early because it takes me over an hour to get to work every day. Right now my alarm is set for 6.15am, giving me plenty of time to do my writing exercise, which I’ll explain more about soon, and do my meditation, before my usual morning routine kicks in.

I keep saying once I finish my college course, then I won’t have to get into work so early in order to make up the time I miss for classes. Or if I could just go to bed early, but…Reddit! Or if I worked closer to home.

Two out of three of those excuses are impossible to change right now: I still have another three months of college. And I can’t change jobs right now otherwise I’d have to pay the €2,000 college fees (my job are paying for my education). So I can’t actually afford to change jobs, which just sounds kind of ironic.

What I can change is going to bed earlier at night. When I say Reddit, I mean I am addicted to it. Every night I go to bed and browse AskReddit or other subreddits (depending) until I’m too drowsy to keep it up. Blame my fiancé, he got me into it!

I can make all the excuses I want, but they don’t stop me beating myself up. I know what I have to do, it’s just fighting against the procrastination that’s proving to be the real challenge.

Must. Not. Procrastinate!