I decided to get a pedometer to track how many steps I take a day – the ideal amount being 10,000. However, I quickly grew tired of it because it kept resetting whenever I accidentally leaned on it (usually when I was sitting down), so I just use my phone instead.
Anyway, because I work an office job that requires a lot of sitting, my daily steps are pretty low. I’d be lucky to reach 3,000 steps per day. Right now I pay to park my car right across from my office building, but I wonder if maybe it’d be good for me to go back to parking (for free) ten minutes away. During the summer it’s fine because the schools are off and there’s barely any traffic and ample parking. But once the schools are back…
Originally I had invested in a parking pass to ease my stress levels. You see it takes me up to an hour to get to work each morning (and to get home). If I go back to parking ten minutes away, am I just creating unnecessary problems for myself by adding more time to my commute? It’s hard to know what to do. I’m going to ask my fiance and my family for advice because I’m still learning to trust my own judgement.
I’ve always wanted to bring my MacBook to a coffee shop and write a story. Sadly I don’t drink coffee or anything else (I imagine) on the menu. I doubt they’d be happy for me to sit there for an hour or two without ordering anything. A cup of milk, perhaps?
What other places could I write that would be inspirational?
Last night my fiance and I went to see Green Day live at the Royal Kilmainham Hospital in Dublin. If you don’t already know, they’re my favourite band in the whole world.
There are a couple of things that impact my behaviour at concerts. The first is that I can’t be too deep in the crowd (anymore) because I panic. My brother thinks I might have claustrophobia, yet it seems to only occur at gigs. I remember seeing Green Day back in 2008 and I missed a few songs because I got a mild panic attack and had to move to the back away from everybody.
The second is that I’m always aware of people around me, especially if they’re drunk and rowdy. I know it sounds stupid and uptight, but I wish people didn’t drink at gigs. This was made worse by the fact that the concert last night was outdoors. I spent a silly amount of time being weary of these drunk guys behind me who kept hitting into me and waving their drinks a bit too close to me. For me that just ruins a gig.
Even though I’m learning to be mindful as much as I can, it wasn’t until the lead singer – Billie Joe – told everyone to put their phones away and to be here in the now, that I remembered. And so I put my phone away, even though I’d only taken a couple of [bad] pictures and filmed a few videos. Normally I snap, snap, snap throughout a gig. And I did my best. After all, how often do I get to see this band live? Aside from the fact that I saw them in Berlin back in January, they haven’t performed in Ireland in SEVEN years. So I put myself in the moment and tried to ignore the drunkards behind me and it worked for the most part.
Even though they played for two and a half hours, it wasn’t long enough, but I feel I enjoyed it a bit better than I would if I kept letting my mind focus too much on the anxiety of people crashing into me or spilling their drinks on me (it has happened). I just hope they play here again soon and don’t make me wait another seven years.
I’ve found a new Instagram challenge!
During my explorations into the world of bullet journaling, I came across pageflutter.com, which led me to the challenge. It’s basically writing a six-word story every day based on the daily prompt. Today’s prompt is: Stargazing. Here is my entry:
Not great, but it’s a start. I wonder how long I’ll stick with it before I lose interest!
A girl I work with introduced me to a book entitled Conversations with Friends by Sally Rooney. Her roommate is apparently friends with the author, who sold the book for half a million euro. Immediately I was bitter but then I decided to take a step back and remind myself that I haven’t written in so long. This girl obviously went to a lot of trouble and it paid off for her, so I should be happy for her. I decided to prove this to myself by going out and buying the book. I haven’t read it yet, but I plan to start it once I finish reading my current book.
When I told my sister about it, the first thing she said to me was “why do you write a book?”. Obviously that’s been my dream, but I was honest with her about my lack of motivation for writing anymore. She encouraged me nonetheless and her words have stuck with me. I have an idea, but I can’t bring myself to write it in fear of losing interest like I always do, even if I follow the mantra I mentioned in a previous entry:
Get it done now, get it right later
I’ve fixed my laptop so there’s no longer the excuse of that being the issue. I’d love to bring my laptop somewhere and write, not just at home. I don’t drink coffee so unfortunately that’s not an option. Would they let me stay there if I just drank milk or water? I couldn’t even imagine having one of their snacks because of my selective eating habits.
If I can push myself to do yoga, to go for a walk every other lunchtime, to meditate each morning, why can’t I push myself to write?
“If everything is always changing, then that includes us too. There is no fixed identity – it’s an illusion – set it free.”
I haven’t been on WordPress in a while because once again my lack of motivation has overtaken me. I just get these periods when I avoid certain things I usually enjoy doing, including blogging. I’m not saying I’m back 100% but I will make the effort to update more and fight against my own procrastination.
Quite a few changes have been made in my day-to-day life and I’d like to share them to you in bullet point format:
- As I mentioned before I’ve started a bullet journal (hence the bullet points!), and I think it’s helped me keep myself motivated in at least some aspects of my life.
- I’ve started doing yoga again (did I already mention that?). At first I was doing a beginner class on Thursdays and I found the instructor very tough. Another instructor covered for her last Thursday whom I found to be much better so now I’m attending her classes on Mondays. I also hope to practice on my own 1-2 days per week. Anyone know of any good Vinyasa Yoga tutorials on YouTube?
- I’ve stopped doing the Instagram challenge. You could look at this as a negative but in reality I was finding it a chore and mostly I just scanned through old pictures to try and match the day’s tag. It’s hard to find anything new to photograph when you go to the same places every day.
- In spite of my rant about having to pay for meditation apps, I gave in and subscribed to Headspace when they offered me a really generous discount. But I love it, and I do it twice a day without feeling like I have to. But I did get some great advice from a fellow blogger so I thank you!
- I’m reading more. There was a time when you couldn’t find me without a book in my hands, and even though I’m ahead in my Goodreads reading challenge, I don’t feel like I’m reading enough. So what’s my problem? It could be my addiction to YouTube when I come home in the evenings. I’m not the type of person who can read and listen to stuff at the same time. Or maybe I’m reading books that aren’t that exciting. But that’s changed, I’m reading more enjoyable books now and seem to be flying through them, even if I still choose YouTube over them!
- I have a story idea. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it a million times again, but it’s there and I’ve done a little bit of writing with it, but it’s not easy. I should just run with it before I lose interest, that’s the challenge!
- Probably the greatest achievement I’ve made recently is going to the dentist. I’m not going to tell you how long it’s been, but just know that it’s LONG. Considering my parents paid thousands for periodontal and orthodontic treatment for me, I owe it to them to keep my teeth in good shape. So I went and… it was bad. I had to get a cleaning which I hate, and not only that, I have to get MORE cleaning next week! (It was supposed to be this week but my dentist had to reschedule – secretly delighted!). He also wants to put a retaining bar around the back of my bottom teeth (I have one around the back of my top teeth from my braces) because I have so much bone loss in my bottom jaw and my teeth will eventually come loose. I’m more worried how much it will cost – €70 just for a cleaning! But I’m more thorough now with my teeth cleaning: twice a day I brush, floss, use inter-dental brushes, and rinse. It’s ironic though, I don’t drink, smoke, eat sweets or drink fizzy drinks and yet my teeth (well, my gums) are so bad!
That’s all I can think of for now. If I think of any more I’ll update!